Life has been...interesting.
I've been married for almost 5 years now and it's been a fascinating journey. Being married is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Isaac is the only person that could help me grow and become the person I am today, no one else would be able to have his patience with my crazy world.
I am currently on track and am one semester away from graduating with my B.S. in Exercise Physiology! Man, that feels so good, the light is getting brighter and I'm about out of this confining tunnel of the "real world" all my high school teachers called college.
It's not by the way, far from it. Due to the stress it has put me under to try and keep up many different things have happened that I totally didn't expect. One of them is being told I have ADD. Yes, you read that right, I have ADD. Anyone surprised?
I now take some medicine for it that helps me feel a lot less stressed out because I have an easier time focusing and taking in information. The biggest thing is that I have a lot more energy than I have ever had throughout my college career. I feel like I can actually tackle a large assignment without being overwhelmed. Modern medicine is truly a blessing.
Another event I didn't see coming was when I was taking a Family is Eternal class about 4 years ago. I kept getting this feeling about children and how it would be to raise my own family, seeing Isaac as a father and all the difficult yet amazing things we would go through together while raising babies.
Sooo, I went home and prayed about it, despite the fact that I really didn't want kids right then, because I knew that if God wanted me to go on a certain path he would make it possible for me to get through anything that came my way.
I kept this information to myself so that I could feel it out first. After a week or so of the same feeling coming back when I would think about kids and Isaac and I had a particularly spiritual experience after going through a session at the Rexburg Temple, I told Isaac about my feelings and the things I had been studying out and how I felt about it all, then I told him that I felt like we should start trying to have kids.
He was a bit surprised as I had been adamant about taking the right procedures to prevent such things until we felt ready. So we did, we tried.
Almost a year later we knew something was wrong. I went to the doctor at the student health center and they believed that I wasn't ovulating correctly and I ought to see a specialist. I made an appointment at the Madison Womens Clinic, I couldn't get one for a few months, so once I finally got to go I was anxious.
I can't say I was impressed by how I was treated there. I was informed to be there at least 10 minutes early so that they had plenty of time to get me processed and so they wouldn't have to make other people wait due to being so busy.
I filled out all of their paper work and then waited a half hour.....I wasn't too happy about it as I had a ton of homework. They finally brought me back into a room where I spent another 10 minutes. Yay.
The OB/GYN finally came, I told her what was going on, asked her a bunch of questions and what she thought about it. While she talked to me she was looking at other paper work, didn't look me in the eye and seemed busy trying to take care of other people by talking to her assistant and going back and forth between me and her.
Nice.
After the whole thing was over she told me that a few of my questions about acne and why I still had it like a 12 year old was because it was genetic, I couldn't do a thing about it so I'd just have to get on with my life.
What?
As for why I haven't had kids, well I may have something called PCOS, Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome, and that taking some medication would probably due the trick I just needed to do a few months of checking my temperature for ovulation patterns to really figure out what medicine to take. Because it was a physical they were going to take my blood to check for certain things.
And just like that she was gone.
*Blink...blink...
Ooookkaayy
Her assistant had me sit on a chair while putting my arm on the exam table, where I had just been sitting, after pulling off the paper cover and started cleaning my arm. I was not comfortable about this. I'm a CNA, and even I know not to do something like that on an exam table that hasn't been at least cleaned off.....which this one looked like it need some attention......I didn't even want to think what I had been sitting on during my exam.
I got the heck out of there as soon as I could. I never went back.
They called and told me everything looked normal and to make an appointment once I was done with the ovulation cycle tracking.
Ha...haha...NO.
Now that I haven an idea as to what's wrong I have been doing my best exercise and diet wise to help my body. I'm not always successful, but it's nice to have a major whose classes give me guidance with these things.
Summed up:
I can't have kids at the moment.
I haven't continued looking into it because I haven't felt any sort of prompting to do so. I believe one of the reasons I was prompted to try and start was because there was something I needed to know about myself so I could work on it and know what was going on before I went into a huge process of medication and a million doctors visits.
Isaac and I have strongly felt that we will physically have kids, one day I will be a mom, but today is not the day.
Well....I seem to have put off homework for a good time.
There ya go.
Randomness from Falisha. Maybe not too random, I keep getting asked when I'll have kids and it bugs me because it really isn't anyone's business.
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